Thankyou 2012, I'm moving on to 2013

I can't ask for more but thankful for the good times I had with families and friends. Those close to me. Thankful that Ben is always close to me :)

So much to say but leaving to my heart to deal with it.

Thankyou 2012.

Alone time

Sitting at Raffles city Starbucks 6.15pm, with Cafe Mocha. Just feel mentally drained, I feel so tired really. Just hope that this moment, anybody/somebody whom I know will pop by, right infront of me and talk to me, casual talk is fine. But apparently no one so far...

And these 2 Vietnamese beside me talking non stop and so loudly. I want some peace man!!

So I'm having this alone *me time, people watching now. This actually feels not too bad.. I'm back to studying mode already, thank goodness I woke up and perhaps in my dream someone did knock some sense into me yesterday night! I went to the library on Sunday and studied for near 5hrs straight! Amazing! So tonight when I get home, I will study more. I need to get a planner 2013, I shall go source out with the sis maybe tmr...need to plan my time well.

Played too hard for the past 2-3weeks, i guess that's the reason why I'm so drained. I'm in the the festive mood no more. Sian now!!!

PS: You mean something to me, really

Merry Christmas

Drink Drank Drunk. Not a very good one. Truths that come to light. I'm not very good at handling this kind of shit.

21.12.12

Throat hurts, headache, migraine.

I slept early last night because I don't feel well. But woke up to these. Think I need to take panadols, my best friend.

Heading to the library in awhile. I shall read VSA today, most hated mod. Alone for the whole day, need to do some soul searching. Die, cfirm into depressed mode later in the day. Sometimes I enjoy being alone, but on the other hand when no one contacts you 24hrs, you feel weird. How strange. So they say today is going to be the end of the world, I think if it happens, is going to be sad for me since I'll be alone today. So from yesterday, Thurs-Sat I will not be meeting Ben, since he have his activities.

I received a very touching message from a friend yesterday! We were really close friends in JC, but not so in the recent years (last year-now) After I read his message, I was shocked and on the verge of tearing. I hope to see him soon, we need to talk. I know he needs friends to be there for him at this point of time and I know I want to be there to hear him out. I shall arrange for a meet up with him soon. Please stay safe and be happy my friend.

Let's go Friday, let everything goes into my head please.

Today is an excuse for us to say whatever we want- if we survived through today, we may not have the opportunity to say anything we want. Haha! Everyone, go confess or whatever you want!

PS: Everybody stay safe and Dear world, please don't end today, I promise I'll be good.

Cute

So cuteeeee! I love it when I receive sweet and cute stuffs. Received my card from Huihui<3 Thankyou! I have decided to stop mailing cards to my friend, so lazy! But I must say Huihui is my sweetest friend, she put in efforts into mailing greeting cards to us yearly. This year I received 2 cards by postage from her. I'm the lucky one to have a friend like her. The joy of receiving handwritten card+ our pic= Double Happiness! Thanks Babe.

Took a pic of the soft toy at taka! She's so cute. Couldn't resist!

Keep me sane, please.

This sudden sadness creeps in. I hate it when I'm sad. I can't sleep, did not sleep well last night. Is going to be miserable day today. I need to meet my friends, do some shoppings to kick this sadness off. I know I'm lying, lying to myself. This is getting me nowhere. When I'm sad, I spend. Especially dresses, I will be back with many dresses. Is not just 1 or 2. Strangely, I usually comes back with many dresses during :( days. I don't know why. And yes, when the bills come, congratulation to me!

Please keep me sane. I need to think straight and right and not like 1+1=3. Geez, if the world is coming to an end, all the more I shouldn't be feeling depressed.

Old Habits Die hard

I have this bad habit of coming home to stone for an hour or so before I finally decide to shower. I just don't feel like moving when I'm using the phone to post here, check on twitter, instagram etc..

Hopefully I'll get a good night sleep tonight! 累.

Photo taken on Sunday, another random pic :)

Hey

Hi

Back home on an early Monday evening. I need to hit the sack early tonight, lack of sleep for the past few days, on average 4 hours a day. But well, I'm sure I will sleep at 2-3am again later on, thanks to this body clock of mine. I'm actually not that busy, but I wonder what did I do for the 20 hours daily. Wasting my time and life away, Why am I so screwed?

Yet to start on my present hunting, need to buy 2-3 presents for gift exchange. Can't decide what to buy. I want to buy something that will be of good use to the person who receives it, something that he/she will use, so is really tough for me to decide what to buy since I don't even know who I am buying for. Just need to try my luck I guess....Am still loving this Christmasy mood! Actually can't wait for the gift exchange with my primary school friends, a bunch of fun people! 

Ps: Mind over Heart- or- Heart over Mind?

:)))))))

After a few hours of studying, sitting at a cafe having tea. Life's good like this. Thank you December, for once I felt that actually I'm so blessed. Though I'm not rich $$$$, very broke now (acc left with a few bucks perhaps? Hahaha) at this moment I feel that I'm the richest girl in the world because happy from within. I'm contented with what I have. I'm happy :D This is what I have been asking for all this while, I hope I will continue to be happy in the many days and years to come. Of course all my friends to be very very happy.

Yours sincerely,
Happygirl1991dotcom! (hahaha)

Angry

My blood is boiling, reaching its maximum point soon.

Sweetness overdose

Ben said to me that day " Sorry I kissed alway your lipsticks (lips)"
Me "I didn't put on lipsticks today :( " what are you talking about? Hahaha

And both of us burst into laughters...

好恨我自己，为什么会这样？

A leopard will never change its spots

This person "M" message me so randomly! So initially I thought it was really nice of that person to contact me after 3years! M claimed to be a changed person now. For me, I just find it weird when I received a call and messages from M. Afterall, been 3years since I last saw the person in school.

So M called again and said that I'm the third person he called, and I'm the first to pick up as of that day. I was just wondering, If there's a need to tell me that or something to be proud of by telling me something like that? I was being way too nice to answer the call in the first place. So it ends up as though I was desperate to pick up the damn call after seeing the name. M suggested to Meetup, but I'm afraid to even meet this person. Just feel uncomfortable and is going to be so awkward, I guess.

And people being judgemental again towards me. I have friends that I message all day long, be it male or female, they are the ones whom I hold dearly to. But I really dislike it when someone message you and make you feel that they may have ulterior motive.

Am I the unfriendly one? Or once bitten, twice shy?

<3

I think I'm a bit ridiculous because i usually post in the midnight and it will show the date to be the next day when i'm actually relating to the previous day.

Up to date, December has been good to me! My favourite month of the whole year! Love meet ups with my friends, love them so much. Just want to hug all of them and kiss them all Hehe! More and more girly style but I'm straight, definitely!

A big hole in my pocket now, damn broke kind but I'm very happy :D I still have many more meet ups with friends. My pay needs to come in soon, $$$ roll in!

Pics not in order.

Mixed feelings.
I'm tired. Just want to sleep now.

Sloppy

Ok dragging my feet to school. I can never understand girls who go to school with thick make up? I'm with a bow hairband, top, shorts and slippers, no make up now- there are times I felt so embarrassed why am I going to school like that?! Simply too lazy, and I don't see the need for me to dress up extremely well to lectures. I think girls want to impress guys, hitting on them. But I'm not going school to impress any. Ya, image right? I think my friends know me better than any stranger, is ok for others to judge. It doesn't matter much coming from strangers. Isn't it?

My ulcer is so horrible. Those underneath your tongue is definitely the worst. I'm going to survive on liquid food for the next few days :( ok, reaching school!

Have a good day.

Buddy!

Brighten up my Monday morning looking at this pic. (PS: unclear, thanks to phone camera! I need to put my camera into good use and pick up some skills)

My Saturday :(

This is damn hardcore, 3 lectures straight, from 8.30am-6.30pm! With Less than 4hrs of sleep, omg!! I'm at the 3 lecture now, waiting for the last lecture of the day to start :(

Blank

Staring at it blankly for the past 15mins! Too much to write but I don't know where to start :(

O
M
G

Goodnight! I sleep at near 2am or later every night, screw my bio clock. Bye

My Wednesday..

Usually I will set my alarms even on days that I do not have morning class. The alarm snooze from 8.30-10.30am today, and that's when I decided to get up at 10.30am. I think I slept more for the past 2 weeks! I'm the kind that feels perfectly normal and can still be very active and energetic to have 4-5hrs of sleep a day! (Sleep late and wake up early)

So I have set 6 alarms on my phone now, just in case I slept through again and that's it for my morning class.

Wednesday was quite good to me! Had lunch with Ben, then late afternoon class which ends up like a copying session again to me ;( Die!!!! Skipped the test with my friends, so I left during the break, that's the right decision! Because it was so lame that the lecturer told them to bring home and do the "Test" That sound more like an assignment to me. Went home for a jog, weather was good! Sad to say, I was all smiley during the whole run but none of the joggers smile to me! This country is a depressing place man, everyone is like a walking zombie. Black face, abit of angst I guess. I was in good mood today due to the good weather and thank goodness my back finally recovered after 1 month. So I met Ben for a little while on the way back. And home after.

Just another day but :D

Goodnight!

Young at heart

Look at the last pic! Hellokitty's skeleton. Haha, repost from Fb! Can't get enough of mouth-less kitty :>

The other 2 pics of the planners, nice! If I'm getting planner for 2013, I shall get something like that. I love the original Hellokitty in red ribbon! Really hate it when I see black kitty. The pic of Rila is my friend's friend, haha!

Btw, the sis purchased 2 mocha frappe, from Starbucks and free upsize given by the barista! Given her kiddish look, she always get something extra or free when she buy food/stuffs. That's an advantage of looking young!

Alright almost 3am, need to hit the sack. Night!

3rd December

A good kickstart for my December meet ups- with Olivia & Ana yesterday! It was a good one. Supposed to have dinner at Dempsey but it was pouring the whole afternoon and evening :( so it was quite a turn off for us! So we ended up Taka Ichiban and Paris Baguette for coffee! Of laughters the whole evening. Love them so much <3

I don't know is it because we are getting old and friends do not meet up that often, I must say I hate goodbyes! Nowadays I will get all excited, counting down to the days that I'm meeting my friends and then when it is time to say goodbye, I will feel very upset deep inside me. On the way home, silly me will be smiling to myself and browsing through the photos taken. But happy from within, that I have friends like them all :)

2am

Exams over and I'm so dead! Glad that is over, sad that $$$ fly. Anyway December is here. Scheduling more meet ups for pre-Christmas and catching up with some friends. I really love December <:

Need to start early revision for the final exams, cannot afford to fail! So much for me to catch up, committed to study damn hard from this week onward :<

Went to Sentosa on Sunday, supposed to be sun tanning and lounging around with Ben but it drizzles a little before we even hit the beach :( so we ended up heading there in the evening for a mini picnic ~.~ Well, despite the last minute change of plan, it ends up good. Windy-evening weather, just right for some picnic along the beach. Good time spent together with him <3

Random note~ By the way, I have this friend (anonymous A) A always make me feel that we have known each other for the longest time. Sometimes I do wonder if I know this person in my previous life or whatsoever. More than once that I felt this way, trying really hard to think if I know this friend beforehand. A very good friend whom you can rely on despite us not meeting up that often. It feels like this person knows me well, can read my mind without me saying anything.. I don't know how should I put it but you know both of you are of the same frequency. Wait, I think different characters but hit it off well. I think both of us can talk for hours if we have the time in the world for each other. (PS: Dear Santa, I hope to see A this December! Because this person is forever busy, I need some bitching session with this friend soon)

I have a lot more to say but geez is 2.30am now! Need to get up early for morning class. Ok bye goodnight!

Found this pic, I miss them all. I'm supposed to be the one organizing for the next picnic with my Jc clique.

哭过就好了，不是吗？

.......

Walking home, along boat quay, depressing mode on. Can't wait to head out soon! Riding on this stress-crazy-siaolang-emotional roller coaster!! I just need to rant...

Walking and posting at the same time! I always wanted to try the Indochine restaurant, the one along boat quay right next to Asian Civilisation. The setting and ambience looks romantic to me. Like a good place to catch up with friends. Just saying.. Ok next, tourists ask me to help them take a pic- they are not very friendly people :( just my luck. Then after I walk passed Timbre Art House, a couple in a fight, geez- the lady is shouting and crying at the same time. While the guy remains quite calm. Seems like she's all ready to jump :(

Sad to say, I'm walking towards Starbucks now!! Actually come to think of it, my life is not as miserable as the others, shouldn't whine too much!

Haha Ok bye! Till then when I'm random again.......

Secret Santa

I hope I have a secret Santa this Christmas. 1-2weeks ago, my sis told me about what gifts she and her friends exchanged last year, and then this week they had randomly assigned a person to whom they anonymously give the gift to. Go google Amazon's, I'm very impressed with their ideas and services (I'm too lazy to explain here)

I think is really sweet when you buy something for someone that suits him/her, most importantly something that comes in handy for the person. It does not have to be expensive stuffs. Is not about the amount of money, but more of the sincerity and thought that counts. So far, I have one gift exchange with the girls :D thinking of what I should buy?! Hehe...

On a side note- Great minds think alike, how true is this? Having doubts about it.

Goodnight! I'm sleepy now. Need to get up in 6hrs time!

In need of a beach vacation

1am in the morning. Miss Krabi, the beach, the sun, the food and everything there.

Let me have a sweet dream tonight please. Goodnight

Raindrops

Time: 8.30pm

Just stepped out of the library, my neck, back aching :( I'm freezing because is raining. I wish someone can hug me now, need some warmth!

Alone at the bus stop waiting for bus. I love the rain when I'm at home, or somewhere safe and cosy! Definitely not when I'm out.


~Reminiscing the good old days, my friend~

5days more to December!

The Christmas tree is so pretty. Managed to capture such a good shot at vivo with my handheld phone :D Can't wait to put my camera into good use when December comes.

Missed my bus, and initially early for school, guess I'll be slightly late now. Insufficient sleep because I forgot to do my assignment and started on it 12midnight. Took me 3 hrs to finish and then right after, I couldn't sleep. When I'm tired, all the more I can't get to sleep.

Anyway, i was browsing through my Facebook, my newsfeed. I hate it when people like to quote others'. Seriously,, it doesn't make you any better person by quoting others. Try quoting yours man! It annoys the hell out of me, perhaps is because is that specific person whom I really dislikes. The best thing I think he wants "likes" so on average per day, this person post at least 2-3times quotes! (ok, is at least) So much for wanting to delete such a bad ass person. But well, there's a reason why I don't delete him off my fb list

Alright, I shouldn't be that grumpy! Have a good monday everyone!
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Waiting in line

Waiting for my turn at the clinic, initially there were 20 people infront of me, right now there's 10 still. So there's a slight improvement I should say. I'm the kind of patient that is quite picky about my doctor. My current doctor, he's a very friendly man but he always charge me higher and higher despite the fact that I see him so frequently the past 1year. As compared to my family members, he charged me so much more! Then i will always joke about it and tell my mother to go with me the next time i visit him so that he will know my whole family only sees him when we are sick. But sadly, it doesn't work that way and infact he knows I'm their daughter lol. I'm paying so much for per visit and yet i have to wait in line for so long, close to 50 bucks for per consultation. Think he's really famous in this area. He's a really nice and quite caring doctor.

There was once that my mum brought me to another doctor, bitchy doctor! She's around 70yrs old but she looks really young, obviously she takes Botox every 6 months and I think she loves to receive praises that she's young! But well, the more someone wants to hear praises, all the more i will remain silent and not comment about! Haha..What I don't like about her is, she will scold her patients, oh yar my sis is one of the victim who get scolded by her frequently, oh well she's the only one that can treat my sis's nose! We paid for it but ended up getting scolded! Ridiculous right?!! Ain't doctor supposed to be caring and be angel like when we're at the most unwell state?

Alright, 3 more to go before it is my turn! Today is run errands day, after this I'm heading to ICA and then continue to chiong my exams.. I try 150 pages today!! Hopefully I can ;( sad life...

9 Days

I will not allow sarcasm to bring me down.

Have a Yakult!

Time Check: 1.30am (still wide awake, hoping to fall asleep sooner)

A little struggles deep inside me. But well I'm ok. Received a fb message from someone that sent me his regards. Shock of my life though, but is really sweet when friends decided to drop me text/fb messages or whatever after a few years. It brightens up my day a lot more. Perhaps I shall do that too once in awhile, a little surprise for my friends is good right?!

Mocha frappe almost everyday, sweetness overdose, adrenaline rush. I change studying location almost everyday for this week, no fixed place.

Alright shall end here, need to catch up on some sleep! 5hrs of sleep.. Actually I don't feel like heading to school tomorrow. It feels like a waste of time for this and next week! Going for the sake of attendance and copying! Don't know what am I doing man.. When December comes, after 1st, is going to be a nightmare!

Keep this going~

:O

Craving for Crawford's Bakchormee! I really love to Bcm, to the extent that I can eat it daily without feeling sick of it. This Bcm is from Chinatown, Ben bought it for me the other day. Not too bad!

Too tired to think of what to post here now, I'll be back... :)

Countdown begins (12 days)

Some hardcore studying today! Only 7hours of sitting down and reading, and i think is killing me :( 1st December please come sooner.

I'm someone who does not like competition at all. I don't like it when due to competition and it strains friendship. Sometimes I feel that all of us are in it for this. Though certain things are left unsaid but I can feel the pressure, and usually I will choose to avoid because i'm not in it for competition with my friends. I don't want us to be holding guns and shooting/killing each other. I'm extremely sensitive and observant to what's going on around me. I just don't like it.

I used to have a study buddy, but now all alone. This is year 3 for me, all alone by myself. But well, I don't believe I will not be able to make it through. Need to go on and on :)

Diet plan: On!

Fat is the word! I know I'm not obese, but each of us have certain expectation of ourself. For me, I want my thighs to be smaller and slimmer! To my horror, I have carrot/radish alike big thighs. I need to be slimmer. I know I'm not tall, my legs ain't model-like, slim and long! I'm asking for smaller thighs.. Desperately want my ideal figure.

To me, Skinny doesn't relate to perfect or good figure!! One has to be in proportion to their heights and assets Let's say, tall people who are skinny, but if let's say their boobs small and flat, that's not having good figure. Same goes to short people like me, it does not mean being petite means I have good figure.. I'm Feeling fat, expanding in the wrong direction! I know right that everyone have different perspectives on this. This is just my personal view and I need to work on it..

Way to go, to keep fit and staying healthy. No one is perfect. Need to work on my body! To gain at the right place, and lose also lose at the right place please :)

Everybody, stay healthy and keep fit!

Goodnight

Time check: 2.08am Sunday morning

Everyday at around 1ish-2ish in the morning, I tend to be exceptionally emotional. Usually I will sum up my long day, especially when my day is longer than others (around 5hours of sleep daily)Right now, mixed feelings. I need to sleep off these.....

P.S I wish I know you more

The Back

Been relatively unlucky the past few days. Did not sleep well and I woke up with very tight and uncomfortable neck on Saturday morning. My head could barely turn left/right. So that's like a add on to my existing backache. I don't know what to do with my back. I went for acupuncture yesterday, just hope it will be ok in another few days time. Giving the back another week, if it does not recover then probably have to go for x-ray. I have the tendency to sleep to my right, but now I can't because it hurts even when I just lie down to my right. So now I have to lie flat and face the ceiling :(

Need to get well soon so that I can go for a run soon. Just can't wait, so I have been taking very good care of my back these few days. Annoying much!

To the embassy

Woke up early in the morning for the renewal of both me & the sis passports. There were quite a lot of people at the embassy early this morning. Usually we get to collect the new passport in the afternoon, but today there were exceptionally a lot of people, so we are only able to collect it on Tuesday, which means we have to run errands again on Tuesday and then to ICA at lavender -.-

Anyway I bumped into a nice lady today who brightens up my day a lot more. As you know the requirement for a passport photo- your fringe cannot cover your eyebrows and they want to see your ears. So initially I had my hair tied up, but my mother said I look better with my hair untied, so I let down my hair and it was like a lion head, hell messy and ugly then. So I asked my sis if she has hair clip, she did not have any, at that moment the lady next to us pass me hairclip and she adds on if i need more than 1, i can take from her. I was shocked because to be honest after staying here for close to 15years , I don't usually encounter such kindness from a stranger.

Personally, I always feel the closeness between fellow Malaysians. Let's not relate to the accent, but in general they are more approachable. But of course, I do have a lot of really nice Singaporean friends :D

Heading to TCM in abit for my back. Back ache for a week, It hurts even when I cough or laugh :( Hopefully it will recover soon and I'll be able to go back to my routine run! Miss running..

Have a great day to whoever that happens to chance upon here! Bye

On the way to school

Love the fact that as I'm on my way to school, I am able to post a short paragraph here.

Exceptionally long week since Saturday despite Deepavali holidays! Usually I don't have class on Tuesday, so it feels like every other week to me. In fact longer week since i crashed so many classes to make up for the lectures i missed during the work week. Morning class today :) Love morning classes, it brighten up my day.

PS: I need to work harder than yesterday, and hopefully smarter when tomorrow comes :)

Mid week

Every week after Wednesday's class- Demoralised max, on a weekly basis :(

I miss one of my friend, but I don't think my friend miss me or at the very least remember me. People come and go, how true?!

Rainy day

Whenever it rains, I wish I was having high tea. Can't wait for December to come... What I had ystd afternoon when it rained, Hot chocolate.

Cravings

This is not exactly the one I have been craving for, is the one at Pan Pacific, if I can't find the similar ones which I had previously, considering to head down Pan Pac for that! I'm pretty ok with Danish as well, just hope lady luck is on my side! Hahah sudden cravings for puff pastry!

Gardens by the Bay

Being tourist day. Had a great day out!
I should be worried that my exams in exactly 19days -.- Unprepared!

Strangers to friends

My life been revolving around Ben, Ben & more of Ben! I do realise that, and I don't know if that's good or bad. I have been relying on him way too much, perhaps is not just me, but both of us.

I love meeting new people/friends in my daily life. Of course I only like to meet nice people, and don't hope for nasty ones. Sometimes, I find it amazing to meet people who hit it off well with me, someone whom I can rely on despite us only knowing each other for that few days, or rather it feels like you have known this person for the longest time.

I came across a few friends only recently, they make me feel like I have finally found them. I was all excited initially because there were so much in common between the both of us. I think the problem with me is that the excitement goes off quite easily. Let's say the other party does no effort in maintaining the friendship, at the end of the day I will just leave it hanging there and do not care. Sometimes I feel that maybe they are just friends who come and then will eventually go someday, is just a matter of as and when. I'm not facing with friendship-crisis or whatsoever, but just saying.

Just today, this person added me on Facebook, Someone whom I just met a few days ago. His looks does not match with his statement of "interested in men" so I was shocked and burst into laughters during lecture today. It was quite interesting.

2.30am, I need to sleep now. Goodnight. Till then...

Lights

Starting to love pretty lights, I guess is partly due to Ben's influence.

The sudden urge of posting here...

This is probably one of the best time that I can post whatever I feel like it since nobody will chance upon here. 2012 has been relatively good to me so far, some hiccups along the way but at least it is still manageable. Can you believe it, slightly less than a month to December and that's it for 2012. I don't know if I should be feeling glad that 2012 is coming to an end and be all excited for 2013?

I am quite excited for Christmas though. No plans for Christmas so far, but I really love to see Christmas lightings, gifts and arranging meet ups with friends. However, the irony is that
I wish i'll be out of town this Christmas because I prefer going overseas to staying in Singapore (as you know that few boring places for christmas in Singapore.

Updates:
I just finished working for an event at Pan Pacific. It was good to be able to meet new girls, a total of 19 ladies including me. Really glad that there were no major dispute among the 19 of us and in fact most of us hit off well. As you know when 19 girls coming together, there's bound to cause some frictions. Thankfully, it was not that bad. But inside me, I was struggling and I think my tolerance level had gone up (Shall not talk too much about that here)

I need to study. So many stuffs for me to catch up on. I need to make good use of my time.

Till then.....

So dead

Such a dead site.

Exams over, way too free.

Slacking and rotting my life away.