Terrible Day

Woke up to pimple face, dragged myself out of the house for my sleeprun= sleep+run -.- I dont understand why I'm so tired every single day. I think I'm getting more bitchy, mood-swing and I get upset, angry so easily. Scary much... Hate it when I'm like that, need to control my temper...

I think I need to be alone. The irony: I'm someone who cannot stand being alone all the time. I'm a very people-person! A friend sent me this. "I need to know how to be alone" I'm trying, just me myself and I.

Thankyou 妈咪！

So blessed this year, so far. Counting my blessings, so much love from people whom I hold dearly to. Something i call mine! I'm so excited about it, gonna start playing with my pro soon!

So the sister been planning for my gift the past 1 month. Apparently my mum told her to just purchase a laptop and pass it to me on my actual birthday day but the sis told me instead because she says is too much of a risk if they ends up buying the one I don't like. So yesterday we met for bakuteh dinner, I arranged an impromptu dinner with my mother and sis after sending Ben off at the airport. I was craving for Bakuteh, the one at Bugis Kopitiam. So we met and had dinner there +father. Then my sis ask me what laptop I want because they are going to buy for me after. Totally didn't expect that! So went to epicentre to take a look, the sis had in mind to get me mac book air all these while because she says it suits me a lot. But my preference was MacBook pro because the specs is better for the same amount of money. My mum agreed and recommended that I buy pro. So I chose and they bought it for me. Shocked of my life actually... Still can't believe it, yay! Both of them said "your advance birthday present- for the past 21years+this year" awwwhh, so sweet! Lol... Great <3 Thankyou the sister and the mother!!

I can't ask for more and am truly contented with what I have. So now I need to study even harder for this last lap for the people who love me!

On a side note, is sad that people don't rmbr my birthday and repeatedly ask me when's my birthday, initially I didn't reply but ask again so I replied "oh December" and continue to ask me "so your mum bought you a belated present?" and I replied "no, advance present, 7months in advance-.-" Since when I'm born in December? I'm gonna take my birthday date off fb. Is ok that nobody wish me.. So sad man....

What's in my mind!

When I say don't think about it, the more I think about it. When I say heck about it, the more I care about it.

睡觉

Tired. Record breaking today, I dozed off wherever I go, even when I was on street walking~ I took a bus ride, and yes I fell asleep and woke up 1 stop before where I was alighting at. Mastered this during my JC days lol..

Fell asleep a few times in the library and when I came home, I fell asleep twice, almost immediately after my dinner. Need to do something about it, to my screwed up body clock..

For now, Goodnight, gonna crash, bye. 12.50am

Need 48hours a day..

His shopping spree :)

A long day in school for lecture and after class, headed down to town in the evening to meet Benjum for some shopping spree. I didn't do any, merely accompanying him to get his stuffs. He bought a lot of stuffs :) He didn't want to get the same pair of shoes as me which I have been eyeing for (y'know like couple shoes which I thought was cool, but he told me that's for timber jobs-.- and since he will be doing some trekking so that's not suitable) oh well~ He got himself a pair of good trekking shoes from Timberland for his Thailand trip..

Then we settle for our late diner at 10pm. Beanstro for dinner, my first time trying it and I would say is not too bad, but a little pricey for what we had.

Sleeping soon... 1am ~.~ morning class in hours time, Sian!

Count your blessings

Sometimes we forgot how fortunate we are, to be thankful for what we have.

On my way to school, I saw this group of blind people at outram park, i was walking towards the east west lines. Among the group of blind people, there's a caucasian maybe at his mid 30s who's holding on to his 3-4years old son's hand. The boy is probably giving his dad direction. I have been relatively emotional lately, It strikes me that I'm so fortunate that I can see, I can feel, I can hear what's around me.

Where to, without you.

So used to having him by my side. Amazing~

Dizzy

Very giddy, dizzy, unwell the whole day. My migraine came all of a sudden, I think partly because of the sun! Was feeling so terrible, that I thought I would faint. Approximately 200metres walk, I had to stop 2-3 times, because I really felt that i'm gonna fall. So helpless, didn't call anybody to rescue me because even when I look at my phone, I was so giddy and just want to throw up. So I managed to get to nearest toast box to have my late lunch, so that I can take panadols after. Was wondering if it is because i didn't eat, and that's why I was so giddy. But I don't think so -.-

Earlier on in the day when I went for my run- I was already unwellX I don't know what got into me today, just 1 round around fort canning, I was feeling very drained and tired. Today, my body feels weird... Maybe because lack of blood?! Idk.. Just hope that I will be fine tomorrow. Because now even when I walk, dizzy~ I walk extremely slow on my way back home, don't want to fall.

Maybe I should sleep early tonight~

累

I don't know what's wrong with my body :( just had my morning run but it was really bad today! Just hope my knee joint ain't gonna give me problem later on,

Going for the Summer school briefing in school at 1pm. I think my mother is way too cute, I'll only be away for 1.5months but she make it like as though I'm going for 1.5years, haha... So she ask me to buy new shoes for the trip now, and start wearing it out in Singapore. Her logic: by then the shoes* will be at its best for my feet.

Everybody is so excited about my trip except me. I don't have the time to think so much! Stress much... Stay focus :)

Refreshing~ A must to drink evian after a run!

I'll cut you off...

Tried to reduce the number of times I browse instagram+twitter! Not too bad as of ystd! I know I'm that kind of person that cannot immediately cut off everything..

Sleep solves everything

Someone ask me today, think about why the need to study so hard for this Bsc? I paused and thought about it, actually deep inside me I know the reason why. Thank you for this reminder friend A!

Motivated to study hard for this last lap. I haven't been feeling good the last week. Felt really empty, I don't know how to put this across but it wasn't a very good one.

So I'm gonna work on this- off my phone when I study, goodbye instagram (if possible because I'm so into instagram), bye to twitter, bye to facebook! Fingers crossed, I should really try this out. So many distractions just from my phone. I know is hard to kick these bad habits off immediately, i'll try! But I'll be back here.

Begin with an end in mind. Please let this work...

Sleep solves everything. Is going to be a good Monday when I wake up later on! Let's do this.....

Birthday

Antoinette for brunch. I'm missing out on the good food because today is vegetarian day for me. So i only had cappuccino :(

Till then, I'll be back Antoinette!

:(

I'm not used to it...
I don't want it this way.
My life sucks so much.

Why am I feeling so lousy?

Drained, depressed, upset...

I will sleep early tonight.

I feel like crying. I feel like hiding. I feel like stoning. I feel like crap. I guess I needed more space.