I know I'm a depressed kid

Deep inside crying. I hate it when I feel sad inside. Nobody will understand how i feel so no point telling others. They may not be interested to know your grandma story. I think the worst case is that they have to act, console you. Conclusion is, just have to go on even though it is going to be tough. Nobody is gonna pity me. I only have myself to rely on in times of troubles. No way can I go round asking others to pity me and give me a pat on my shoulder. Why life is so hard? Normally I used Twitter to vent out my frustrations because twitter's my friend. Yes, I know I may get real whinny, bitchy and so on there.. Like I said, I'm a depressed kid.

Tmr is exam and I'm still wide awake at 1am typing these from my phone. Sad life, I know. Enough of my dramas, jst hang on...

Happy Valentines Day everyone :D

I'm abit slow but I have been extremely busy lately. Busy with the upcoming Mock. Oh wait, I call it mock so that I will feel less stress. Seriously, I hate the word "prelim" Haha.. My face is damn ugly now. Damn you, pimples! Hehe..

OMG

I'm on my self-declared holiday when I'm supposed to be revising for exam. Hehe, so Chinese New Year mood. How?

Sorry That I Loved You

My irritating lip!

I just feel like posting a few pis up here :D More photos on facebook.
This week is hell. I was so depressed and troubled by so many stuffs, thank goodness this week coming to an end. For next week, I'll probably be hiding at home most of the time. Yay! Except that lectures on wednesday morning and thursday night! I've never attend lecture in the evening before. This is going to be a good experience, i guess. 7pm-10pm ! hehe. Intensive stats lecture for the coming week and the week after. I like the lecturer even though he likes to leave that few slides for the next lecture when he could actually finish it. He's a SMU professor, he can teach :D

My lips giving me hell lots of problem!
Cracking and bleeding. Especially when you smile or talk, it cracks. My sis told me that it occurs to her lately, and according to my tweet friends, they face this problem too. So is it the weather? Must be global warming!! Ok, I'm going to get lipbalm from either bodyshop or (khiel's?) that my friend introduce me. Have a god weekend, guys!!!

I miss doing crazy, stupid things with my friends. Like how we cycle from one end to another end of sing, peeing in the bushes because we couldnt find a toilet? treat classroom as clubbing ground, play musical chair with your teacher (in class), photo-outings with friends (different kind of stupid poses that we could think of), laugh as loud as we like in the public, climbed bukit timah hill and felt as though we conquered Mount Everest. Those were the times....

I'm home early on Friday :D So happy that weekend is finally here! Oh yayy!!!

What should be the title of this post?

I just got home after a short meetup with the two girls, Zhixuan and Huimin. We went to source for ximing's birthday present. I assume that he dont read my blog because it was meant to be a surprise. Yes, I know is not going to be a surprise anymore since I wrote it here :D We just hope to see him soon.

Guys, I feel so drained after last week and this week. Two more days to weekends, I just can't wait because I do need a break. Supposed to go MBS this coming weekend but it was fully booked, full :( So sad, I have never been up to the sky garden before. Maybe I should go somewhere else that I could see the world and not somewhere I could only see Singapore? Oh right, you can see your house, the block from the skygarden-.-

My parents want to travel to China, Hainan Island sometime soon. I have never been to Hainan Island, the place that my ancestors came from. I studied China studies before and is at the bottom tip of China's map. It will be cool to travel with the family to a Hainanese place because we're the Lee family, Hainanese. Hehe. I hope they dont postpone the trip. Idk... Just wish to travel and go for a getaway.

This is only the second week of 2011 but it feels like decades. I just hope that this going to be a good year because i dont want any drama-mamas. It tough to handle any of those. Just want to do my best for exams, and let this year be a good one.

Alright, I'm feeling extremely sleepy now. Bye everyone!

Irony in me?!

I'm lazy to update here. Very active on twitter. So catch me there :D The irony is that I say catch me there, but i dont like it when it is getting more and more crowded. I know I know, I'm a sucker for saying that...

Anyway life been good, i guess. So far so good. Oh yes, another good thing is that I'm starting to feel stress: good sign! But at the same time, I'm worried that I will end up crying again over studies. I wonder what am I up to?

I have lots of photos to upload. Can i stop being lazy? (Lazy lazy, dont be lazy)
I will update in a few days time :D I want to update~

I'm back

Bangkok was good, the food was good, almost everything was good except the airline. I took cathay airline but it was disappointing. We almost missed our flight on the way back to Singapore. This is the first time I ran for the plane. It was crazyyyy. The airline changed all of our seats which we booked earlier on. Think twice- if you're considering taking cathay arline. I'm going to enjoy my last few days of holidays before sch start next week. Have a good holidays.

Bye 2010, Hi 2011

2010

Studies
Is time that I conclude this year- Beginning of the year, I think it was a bad year when i got back my A level results. But then, now I think it wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. I accepted my fate and moved on in life. Really, is not so bad. I dont want to mention how sad I got at that period of time (you can go to my archives and read)

New friends in 2010
I'm glad that I made new friends and clique in the new environment. Especially my lecture clique (the 10 of us) and as for my FOC friends: we still meet up often. Other than these friends, I got to know others through freelance jobs :D I like to make new friends because is just so awesome to know somebody from scratch. The world is so small that you will have mutual friends and so on. Or i should say because Singapore is so small that's why is so easy to meet someone whom your friends already know and vice-versa.

My old friends
We still meet up often. Primary school friends: (Huihui, Yonggeng, Eleanor, Jowe) We break the record of meeting up more than once this year. I know is funny but i dont meet my primary school friends every week or frequently but we are still very close. Next primary school clique : (Ann, Skip, Kuankoon, Minyang) This clique is weird. Right now, I'm not able to predict when we guys going to meet. I miss them. (Jiamin & Peixian): It seems like we only meet up on each other birthdays.

Secondary clique: (Felicia, Xiwen, Ann, Nicholas, Howeyong, Guorong) Hehe, i think we see each other very often just that there's no 100% attendance. I think because we stay ard the same area that's why we meet up more frequently :D I have a few secondary school friends whom i meet solo but I think they missing in action. They should know who they all. So when are we going to meet? 2011? Dont tell me 2012. Hehehe

JC clique: My council friends (those that I'm close with) and my classmates 08S12! Extremely close with council peeps because I would never forget all the saikang stuffs that we did for the school, yet nobody appreciated us! Though I dislike the school but I miss council friends. (Zhixuan, Suwei, Serene, Fiona, Ernest, Jay, Weicong, Kegan.....) I didnt include huimin here because I see her everyday in school now. hahah. Oh i think i included her now since i just typed out her name. ROFL. I want to meet 08S12 soon. Maybe i should organise a class gathering soon. I see Sharon and Ruoqi quite often but I dont get to see Fuqin and Shengyang :( These two are my clique in class, we used to be so close despite the fact that i'm the only girl in the clique. They're damnnnn nice.

Family
I have more time for my family right after A level ended. So i think A level is a screwed up bitch that tears you apart if you didnt do well. You will think that, oh you wasted so much time on it, sacrifice the time that's supposed to be for your family. urggghhh. ok I have to shutup before i go on and on about this........

Myself
More time for myself this year. Great! I feel loved and happy. BBBBBBBBB hehehehhehe Awesome.


10 more days to 2011. Enjoy the next few days of this year. I'm finally getting out of singapore for a short getaway. Merry Christmas and have a good holidays!! <3

December?!

Sharon Tay, I declare my love for you here. (Oh, I love you)



HuiHui, Awwwwh! The best christmas card i received! <3

Passing Out Parade at Pasir Lebar Camp
Congratulation to all my guy friends who passed out. This means that they can count down to ORD dates?


My face looked so round in this picture. Round fat bitch (Me) Nicholas yee looks happy here.


True friendship. (Because we were at the parade despite the rain) There's raincoats, umbrella etc...


Mildred<3




Happy Birthday Gideon Choo!

Selling: Brand new Agnes B necklace

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Happy Birthday Peixian

Birthday dinner over @ Sentosa's Suburbia. Hope she enjoyed the dinner.


I want a hellokitty polariod :( The hellokitty one that I taken with her came out blank :(

Growling Stomach, Angry Me

I have a weak stomach. Is normal that your stomach growls when you're feeling hungry but mine is definitely weird. Is driving me crazy when I consume a little food, and then I feel so full. Sometimes I feel really hungry, so i eat alittle more but who knows, I feel bloated and I want to burp it out. The thing is my stomach is going against me, I cannot burp out as and when I like. Urghhhx.. The weirdest thing is that my sister has almost the same problem as me but hers is way way way weirder than mine. She burps non stop when she's at home, whereas I cant burp it out. She's taking chinese medicine and my mother wants me to see the chinese physician as well but I really dont like chinese medicine. (So bitter) Hey stomach, stop it.

Last two days of work at Tiong Bahru Plaza (saturday and sunday), Teen titans performace :D Ok bye.

No time for more post

Sucky life. Urghhhh.. 4 more days of work. Cant wait. I need to nap now. Heading out in the evening :D Bye. I'll be back soon.

Hi-tea

Monday: After lecture, meet peixian. Is strange that we stay quite near but we meet once every donkey years. I like peixian's camera. (I'm without make up in this pic and I like my face in these pic :D) I need a new camera.

School and work driving me crazy. I feel so tired, so drained but I kept telling myself is going to end soon- I just need to push myself and perserve through. Counting down to 3weeks- out of Singapore, finally! I need to relieve my stress. Some of my friends been saying that why do I take it so hard and get affected by others so easily. I dont know why too. This emotional* thingy creep inside me all the time. Haha. I need to be more cheerful and chirpy.

Alright. There's Stats lecture tomorrow morning, then work after that. No work on friday because I have Econs lecture. Hehehe... Byeeeeee.

Elephant Hippo Shark?

I didnt know..

I found out that actually there's people who reads my blog/twitter/facebook. I didnt check via any websites but when people accidentally leak out saying that they read my stuffs, I was actually quite surprised. I feel that twitter has no privacy, gradually losing that privacy that I used to have. (I'm not implying that I'm famous, I'm not) I tweet my thoughts and felt that twitter is the right place for me. But I got quite irritated when people assume and think that I'm actually referring to them when I'm not. Or the other way round, if you're guilty and thinks thatyou're the one I'm tweeting about, jolly well keep quiet and pretend you didnt see it. I think that's the only way for us to continue to be friends. All of us have different personality, I understand that it takes time to know somebody well. I want to be nice, but this time I cannot stand it, you know? As far as possible, I want peace and not fight with others over silly things. Really. I know is my bad that I wrote something like that when people actually meant well. But have it cross your mind that I do not need that? Try thinking from my perspective. So right now, I'm actually the criminal being blacklisted. Is ok.

Heart is crying

Hi guys! How's life? This week been a bad one for me. Hectic, Heavy Heart, Moody, Worrying, Just want to cry my hearts out. Econs test was the one, I spent the entire week reading through and I've taken it in the afternoon. I want to at least pass for this test with a decent pass grade. I know is not counted in my overall but at least I want to see an improvement. (I have this bad feeling that is going to come back bad)

I'm not going to disclose much but treat old people well because one day we're the ones going to be oldies. Just these two weeks, I've made numerous trip down to the hospital (between sing and malaysia's hospital) for visiting. It just occur to me that in times of a sickness/crisis (oldies kind) that you'll see how human beings react. It upset me most when I walked along the corridor of the hospital seeing old patients lying on the bed in pain. Especially when I came across a few who's trying so hard to get up from the bed by themselves. Obviously a few nurses pretended that they didnt see and walk off. Where's their family members when they need someone most? Humans are warm-blooded. They can sense and feel if someone is truly concern about them. Next time, all of us will be old. We don't want to be lonely and be left out. We want to be loved by our family members. Just put ourselves in the shoes of the old lonely patients, is sad right? I reminded myself that I want to be filial. Even though there are times that you will quarrel with your family and nasty words coming from you but be sure to be there for your family when they need this support. I was feeling horrible because I see the ugly side of human and certain things are not within our control. Everybody wants to paint a beautiful picture but how is it possible when you're not willing to take part in it? Deep inside me was struggling because I thought everyone thinks the same way as me. Nonetheless, I was wrong.

I hope things will get better and turns out fine. Please.

Stress. Weeling, please manage your time well for the next few weeks! (Work and studies) My coordinator job is starting tomorrow. Wish me luck. So many things for me to juggle between, if only I'm superwoman.......

Stress

Just want to hide and cry. Time to hit the notes even though I'm mentally and physically tired. Infact, is not the notes that's driving me crazy. I'm tired.